Failure

Unemployment

I am a 24 year old college student who loves to party and be surrounded by fun people at all times but I am also a workaholic. In the past year I have had a lot of eye-openers. But first I had to go through hell.
I took a break from school and I thought it was the best decision I ever made. At the time I was dating someone, everything was perfect. I was working and making awesome money. I thought I was on top of the world; invincible, untouchable, everything was just perfect. Then I got shitted on.
I got dumped. I got fired. I missed being in school. I got a new job which sucked. My mother’s house where I live was sold through foreclosure and we were told we would have to be out in the next 1- 2 months. My new job closed down. My mother and I were fighting non-stop. I was unemployed and couldn’t stand the thought of being home where it was borderline war-zone. I had no choice but yo stay home because the unemployment situation left me broke with no money to go anywhere or do anything. This period of time was the absolute worst time of my life and I am pretty sure I’d rather be in a coma. I even declared this time as a quarter life crisis. Call me crazy, whatever.
Today is August 7th, 2012 and this all began in March of this year. I am happy to say that things are looking up. With each event aforementioned I always said ‘things can’t get much worse’ right? But they always got worse. It was unbelievable. My motto was, and still is, ‘is this real life?’ because I would find myself asking myself how could thing be this shitty and be real, am I on some candid camera show? I even decided that if/when I have my own TV show it would be called ‘Is This Real Life’ starring me as myself.
Anyway, like I said, things are looking up. After three torturous weeks of job hunting in the torturous summer heat I found a job, completed training and will be back to my money making, workaholic, party animal 24 year old college student life enjoying the rest of my summer.
The most important thing I wanted to share though was what I’ve learned. I’ve done a lot of soul searching and found some flaws of mine that need addressing. I realized I need to live more and be more adventurous. I need to save my money. I need to cut some people out of my life that were bringing me down. I need to let go of my past and start looking forward to the road ahead of me. I want to travel. I want to explore. I want to get off of Long Island more and also explore Long Island more. There are too many things to do and learn and enjoy and I for sure do not want to waste my time here. I’m letting go of what brings me down and opening up my mind, body and soul to new adventures.
One last thing to be said that I’ve realized lately is that you are alone in the world. Yeah, you have family, friends, bestfriends and a million acquaintances in your life, but always remember that you come first in your own happiness and success and every single aspect of life. The people around you are there for support but it’s up to you to take control of what you want. Don’t be afraid to be selfish because if you keep thinking about what others are doing or saying or thinking, you’re going to get wrapped up in other peoples lives and forget about your own. So be selfish sometimes. Be who you are and do what you dream. Be happy. Be kind. Be open. Let go. Breath. Enjoy life.